12 days... On sleep

Im so incredibly tired

There was a barbeque today, but I just had to loose it

cant do anything apart from sleep, eat spaghetti, bread with the most incredible strawberry jam and pieces of a special kind of salt ham that I dont know whats called in english. I just cut pieces of it and chew around while I walk in the house.

just happy to be here & to feel like vacation.

My aunt, uncle & nieces left for Italy this morning so Im all alone. We took the ferry into Oslo this morning, I had to go for the job interview in town today & I think I got it.

Going for info & another one on monday & then training next friday.

Which is wonderful. I have time to relax & chill.

I also picked up my last suitcase, trust me it was heavy, changed my headphones that have been broken for a couple of months so I cant even remember what it feels like to have music all the time anymore. Which is probably good cause I turn completely anti-social when I have access to them. But it will be good for all the ferry & the buss tomorrow. Bought some groceries and looked for candles, but I could only find expensive, fancy ones and could`nt really look dragging my suitcase around everywhere so Ill get some later when I dont have so much luggage. jee I hate travelling from one place to another for the sake of getting from one place to another right now.

I have to go on a trip home tomorrow cause Im gonna pick up an electric guitar & an accordion & my mother is going to Iceland on friday and I think she`d like to see me before she leaves.

Also my little brother is leader of the student council & giving his graduation speech at 7 tomorrow. Ha. Just like me 5 years ago. I wanna go see that. I love him a lot. He`s a good kid.

The weather is good. Since I got back from town Ive just walked around, in the house, eating the spaghetti and ham, watched some tv for the first time in a while, it chilled me out. A doc. on Thelonious Monk & Nica, & then cougar town for the sake of brainless entertainment thats so good sometimes.

I played today. They have a piano. A couple of pieces, but mostly just freely. Really need to figure out the recording soon. Ive dismantled my mic-stand and I hope Ill be able to relocate all the pieces from travel again. Being tidy is not my strong side. Barely touched a guitar, but I ended up just playing the bass as us. Also should rehearse for JCFI, that is coming up. But anyhow Im just gonna throw myself into it. Like last year.

Ive also bought Medulla - Bjork. How could I not have that album. All is voice.

Even though I have heard most of the songs before. I have speakers now. (god need to get speakers) and I am alone. I can listen as high as I need, the bass is a bit shit & ruins the soundquality a bit. But its livable. Its enjoyable enough.

I also bought a double The Doors, I used to listen to them last summer biking home from work at nights when I worked the late shift. "The end" was especially good and suiting. I also bought Natasha Khans (Bat for lashes for those who know) Two Suns.

Listening to it now.

12 days... On creativity

So I left Liverpool today. After a year. A long year. Gone by fucking fast.

All the stuff that I`ve lived during this year. Its really weird. Shit weird to think about.

Its been wonderful. Its my home now.

Ive moved a lot around living on my own since I was sixteen, but those times I was always dragged between 2places, old home and new home. Always missing one of them.

I don`t this time. England/Liverpool is my home. Its enough.

To calm my restlessness for a while.

I thought it be weird to fly back to Norway this morning to be there for two months in summer,

and part of me did`nt want to leave as I was cab-driving to the airport with my 2bags +bass &

hand luggage-crop.

But as soon as we landed on Norwegian ground, I knew, this is right.

This is what I need. Being in Norway now.

I actually want to be away from Liverpool for a little while cause there has been, there is to much happening.

To much stuff has been going on, and its been taking my creativity & energy. I feel so distracted

all the time, that Im not really getting to do what I really wanna do and I`ve lost focus.

I`ve just been longing for time and space to just sort my head out. Chill out. Play some music

again. Just for the sake of playing & enjoying it. Just Enjoy. As Bjork says.

Which is this that Im gonna do now.

Ive landed in Oslo. And after a massive struggle around with luggage, taken the ferry over to

Nesodd-tangen where Im gonna stay for the next 12days.

And do exactly this.

The sun rose magnificently while I was riding the ferry over today, and awaiting me was the most summer-like weather that make me painfully aware of the fact that I`ve forgotten what summer really is. What it feels like.

You have to go see this place to know what its like, gonna house sit for my uncle&aunt while they are in Italy. Feel like I`ve died from hell and gone to heaven. Its pretty much a paradise. Next to the ocean. High up view so I can see the lights of the city centre of Oslo at night. Fresh smell of syrins, salt water, various flowers, & loads of grass & trees.

Beautiful amaz garden. They have a special kind a swing that lets me be 5years old again.

For tonight Im sleeping in the amazing old fashion cottage that I`ve slept in before, but I`ve got access to the large eclectic house and a incredible, charismatic bath-house that I know for sure I`m gonna sleep in for a couple of nights. Gonna sleep round in all of them.

Shop around the corner, that only sells vegetables, bread & ice cream. Access to an old fashioned bike so I can ride around this entire little pearl.

I went on a boat-trip with my uncle, aunt and niese when I got here today & it was absolutely amazing, breathing the ocean air, climbing around in the sun and devouring the view. Beautiful on all edges. Its all the glory of summer and the glory of this place you could imagine. They have a semi-small boat that you can climb around on while its driving and you can breathe the ocean, see all the beaches, see all the bath houses. I really hope the weather stays like this day, Im gonna run around. Fish crabs.

You have to see this place to understand. I wish I could show you. What an atmosphere that lingers around here. Its the warm & fresh attitude of summer, human love pumping into your blood at the same time as your just waiting for it to be night, light some candles and feel the magic around here. My favourite iseland (its not really and iseland)

This is the place. Where creativity birth-cradles.

For 12 days... to play, live, chill out, run around, bath, fish crabs, write, enjoy, love & record.

12 days...

I`ve missed space. I`ve missed silence. But here at Nesodden next to Oslo in Norway, here it is. And Im here.

Feel like vacation now. Just have to get my job-meeting tomorrow over and done with.

I`ll only let you come over if you bring a fine bottle of whine.

We`ll have dinner in the bath house....

2weeks in tha pool! <3 Shame-lion

So today I`ve had an epic day of shame. The boundaries of embaressment are all being blown, but who cares as the days are not long.

Today I`ve been in Liverpool for 2weeks exactly and its starting to feel like a while. Still living with Alex&Ceasar and a couple of other folks at Agnes Jones. Finally got around to fixing a english phone, (quote from the phone shop "What sort of phone do you want? Me: - A small one), bank account & got my lazy ass out and bought pots and pans, glasses and cuttlery so I dont have to use the one Agnes Jones house cup all the time anymore and steal/borrow cuttlery from my flatmates when they`r looking another way. Still need to get a doctor though, loads of people are falling ill. I went over to Bold street produce market yesterday, bought vegetables&fruit for 7pounds and made the most epic dinner of all times with my new kitchen equipment. Hurrah, for organic vegetable pots !

Met loads of new people. Beer everyday this week ( I know its not good).

On monday I went to Studio and watched all these lipa bands play and danced my ass off to six toys, the fantastic funk band that played in the end. Freaky style.

Yesterday I was gonna go home early to try and get something out of this day, but I got back with Ceasar at 5am after hangin around at Påls place and we didnt go to bed until six. Still this day hasnt been totally useless. Henrik has been over and helped me set up my Pro tools ( recording gear) which proved to be so ridicules and easy that Im playing the moment of shame over and over again in my head. And my luck, Ceasar was there to witness it as well. Thank you Ceasar !

Later we went out for a nice dinner at Soul cafe, so just gonna relax at home and take care of business for the rest of the day. Trying to write down a plan for my musical business and shit, but Im really really tired. Maybe head to Hannahs for open mic night later, but I really dont think so cause I need a shower. And god, I need to wash clothes.

Spending far to much money down here, I feel so screwed. Bought the hummingbird guitar yesterday and now I need speakers?! waah.

But I love it here. I`ve been waiting so long to go live in a proper city, and I love the city and I love the people.

Starting classes tomorrow! Cant wait to begin, so looking forward to ensembles!

Hope I get Steve Barry :)

I guess a new Era - bagera ! Superlamb - banana

So I`ve finally arrived in Liverpool and Im sitting in my room at Agnes J`s listening to PJ Harveys "the river" from "Is this desire". The sun is shining, and I`ve got a really good feeling `bout Liverpool and England. Cant wait to se what this years gonna be like.

Currently Im living with two boys, one from Singapore thats gonna do the pop-tech dimploma course @ LIPA, and Alex from England whos gonna be in my music BA class. During the week theres four more coming, all LIPA students and where gonna be a total of seven. Exited to see what they`ll be like.

Also met a lot o people from my music course and a coupe o third years. Nice people o jes, and really a lot o norwegians.

So I`ve got no suitcase, (its in Manchester, jee) and Im gonna try today to find out if maybe they can send it to me or else I`ll have to go get it tomorrow. Wanna get it done before enrolment on friday.

Also nice to have clothes and towels you know.

So thats about the plan for now. Gonna take a shower and get out to town. The sun is actually shining a lot these days and the streets o the Pool is awaiting.

Wham-slam-kickass-JAM!

I have just played one o the fucking best jams in my life.

Lisbeth Dreier Denmark (perc), Maria Trudel Canada, MArie Claire Dunnard Canada, And Suzanne Denmark let me play a jam with them. They played keys, drums and kongas. I played the bass. It was fucking awsome! They`r like profesional established musicians. Ive never played any jams on bass before. 

And they thought I played well! And I must say so, I thought so myself.

Im so new to this compared to them, playing with them was such a privilige and so much fun! I got a little scared when they asked me, but I thought I will never have an opportunity like this again. I feel like I`ve expanded my ideas on have to play the bass, so many new ideas for how to play it. I love the bass, I love my fucking instrument.  Gonna go for the big fat lady in some time!

Theres so much to try out, I had to try. And Im so glad I did. Cant wait to here the recording. I`m glad I came here. The sound was so awsome, so big, so wonderful. Im amazed. Dont know how to express myself about it. It was just wonderful. I wish every day of my life will be like this!

JEA

Back in black.-* or red...

was gonna blog all the time this last year.

One of these things that just did`nt happen.

But now, O yes, regulary blog posts all the time. Foo shoo

O jea

So let me tell you bout when I met Chantal Willie in Tronheim a couple o days ago!Wow! I met a person who I feel already has changed my life. Sitting here in my room now I`m afraid this kickstart energy will go away.That all this positive energy and believe will disappear. Stick Stick Stick! Chantal Willie, a wonderful woman and baseplayer just sat down and talked to me. Really took time to talk to me and get to know about me. Shes so amazing, I have this encredible sense of honour for her. We where talking and she asked me the fatal question if my family is excited for me going to Liverpool. I was trying to talk about my mother and her positivity and keep the whole thing bottled up, but couldnt control this one. 

So I ended up crying about the whole deal with my father. I got so embaressed, I still am. But I`m glad to have talked to her this way, I cant describe it, its just the way she is. Such a wonderful warm person, spreading her love and her energy. So inspiring.  Thats how I want to be. Strong, joyful, warm and full of believe for myself. To be able to give to others what she gave to me know, only with a few minutes of conversation. She told me that she has belief for me, to keep fighting. To play for joy, not for fame. I want to keep this feeling. This belief.

I`m gonna keep it! Bring it into my  everyday, Be full of love, keep on practising and lead the fullest of lives. Be the best at being myself. Because thats what I want people. To live full out. And not just the easy stuff.

Like working with the elders at the elders home now. To be strong and warm and caring. Thats how I want to be. I will be there for my family, friends and the people that I meet. I will learn form them and they will learn from me. Chantal, thank you. For your time. I just want to be her apprentice, follow her around and learn from her. Both bass and life. She got my mail, and hopefully we`ll keep in touch. I cant describe the way she is, but I want to hear more from here. She`s like wonderful female rolemodel that I wanted in my life.

Gotta go know. Gonna play bass with Chantal and some South Africans and learn from them!

Love!

Platons hulelignelse.-* (meget intelligent og interessant innlegg)

For å trekke en inteligent og interessant konklusjon som man kanskje vil lese om i en blogg vil jeg sammenligen å gå på, bo og leve på en folkehøyskole som litt det samme som å befinne seg inne i hulen i Platons hulelignelse. Man ser skyggene på veggen som ilden lager og tror det er den virkelige verden, men den befinner seg egentlig der ute utenfor hulen. En folkehøgskole er en slik hule, varm og ganske trygg og befinne seg i, med både sine positive og negative sider ved å leve innenfor dette lille området, men der ute finnes det en større verden.
Og den var jeg ute i igjen for noen hærlege dager denne uka.)
Onsdag fikk jeg sitte på hjem med Eivind fra klassen min som er fra Kristiansand. Vi var 5 stykker som skviste oss inn i hans fancyfreshe BMW og det ble, tjah, en lang og trang tur. Av en eller annen merkelig grunn har disse folka også sansen for dårlig stemning som noe morsomt og underholdende og vi så derfor på programmet "The office" på Eivinds flatskjerm på veien. Et program som består av utelukkende dårlige og kipe stemninger, og mens de kanskje synes det er morsomt vrir jeg meg i fysisk smerte over de pinlige situasjonene. Blæh.
Men jeg kom meg i alle fall hjem og tilbragte 2 late dager hjemme hvor jeg kan si at jeg ikke utrettet noe som helst bortsett fra å se alt for mye på tv. Som var hærleg forresten. I helga var jeg i oslo og var innom Arieta og innflyttningsfesten hennes på Majorstua, Tora og hennes noe sjabby, men sjarmerende leilighet på Sinsen, operabygget(!) og Åsa på Grunerløkka. Fant til og med ut at jeg skulle spare penger på trikken da jeg skulle reise hjem på mandag ved å gå fra Grunerløkka til Oslo s, og fikk meg en times stressende vandring rundt i forvirret tilstand.
Tro det eller ei, men buss fra Oslo-Trondheim, halv ti - halv seks, med pledd og musikk var fantastisk. Er sinnsykt glad i å drive dank nå og jeg nyter det!
Men nå er jeg tilbake på Trøndertun igjen og lever det glade liv med 4 ferdig tilberedte måltider om dagen igjen. Hvilket også bringer med seg det at det er på tide og gjøre noe igjen. Men hej, jeg og Ulrik (går kunstlinja på Trøndertun) kom oss faktisk på kino og så "Låt den retta komma inn".
Men i alle fall, tilbake til den intelligente å interessante konklusjonen, misforstå meg rett, jeg har det hærleg på folkehøgskole, men jeg er glad i verden der ute og menneskene mine i den og gleder meg til å komme tilbake til den.-*